I’ve been sidetracked for a while. Waylaid and dismayed. My priorities in as much of a jumble as my emotions. From trying to pay bills with no regular income, to getting jerked around by the UIA, an inconsistent diet, dealing with depression and anxiety, my roommate going through some rough times as well, missing out on opportunities, making bad choices, spending some time with family, spending some time with friends, spending way too much time alone, getting some help, dropping the ball on important things, having trouble sleeping, getting sick, getting thing A done at the expense of thing B, having hope one moment and crippling self-doubt the next, on a roller-coaster of ups and downs that leaves you right where you started. I might write about some of those things. I definitely wont write about others.
Anyway, things are finally looking like they will work out… sort of. I have a job again. It’s far from ideal but it’s better than nothing. Once I get a better picture of my schedule I’ll be able to get a plan together to get out of the red. With monthly bills clocking in just over $700 I’ve got a long way to go there. I figure that I’m down about $2250 from where I would be if I had just never switched jobs. My last cushion finally gave right before I had the interview and I got hit with multiple overdraft fees. Having a job helps, but I’ll probably need to pick up a second job to get ahead of things.
Enough of that depressing stuff; I’m writing a blog again! That’s surely a positive sign as far as my mental health and overall outlook is concerned. First off, you might notice that I reworked the old Schedule page into a more honest Topics page. Six in-depth blogs a week was a little over-ambitious, I know, but I had to see if I could do it. I knew something like this would happen eventually given my track record with similar projects. I still like the six or so categories that I came up with so they are sticking around, it’s just that now they will flow about more organically and unforced. I’ll post at least a couple of times a week and at least one of those will be a Road So Far, by far the one I am most equipped to write with any regularity. Other than that they will come as I have something that fits the particular category. I will try to get a Story Time up at least every other weekend. Feel free to bug me if I don’t. I need to practice those creative muscles and nothing motivates quite like anxious fans. I’d love to get some feedback and interaction from my ever so dedicated readers
As far as this week is concerned, I’ve got the beginnings of a Story Time in the works involving the back story of one of my RPG characters for our Fate Core game in which I’ve been discovering some interesting things about The Baron’s childhood and family. Quite probably a Path of Progress post is forthcoming with the change in my employment status. And just maybe a Roadside Attractions as I’ve been viewing some interesting material of late. I can honestly say it feels good to be writing again and I hope that I can maintain some regularity for once.
~Brad